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My issue of Eugene Magazine! I've been interning at Eugene Magazine since August and worked on one issue with the fantastic crew there. It's going to add to my journalism degree and jump start my career as a writer Now that I finally get to see the issue I am published in and have been working on for the last three months I am ecstatic. This is by far one of the most fulfilling things I've ever done. Sadly now that the issue is out it's time for me to say goodbye. Tomorrow is my last day with the Eugene Magazine crew.

It will be nice to say goodbye to 12 hour days(for awhile) and focusing on having another cozy, fun holiday season with my family and my boy. So thanks for putting up with all my food and scenery photos recently. I just wanted you all to see the fruit of my labor. Hope everyone out there is doing as well as I

Good books I have read recently:

~The Lovely Bones by: Alice Sebold

~The Kite Runner by: Khalad Hosseini

~The Host by: Stephenie Meyer

Best book ever: Water For Elephants by: Sara Gruen

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"Regret" by


"Take Me Away" by


"Hyacinth-7" by


"Freedom's Cage" by

Some of my favorites belonging to some of my watchers!



"Purity" by The one who gave me the idea for the "watchers feature" journal and a wonderful poet!

Good books I have read recently:

~The Lovely Bones by: Alice Sebold

~The Kite Runner by: Khalad Hosseini

~The Host by: Stephenie Meyer

Best book ever: Water For Elephants by: Sara Gruen

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So I wrote a little poem called "A Girls Head is Dangerous" in my history class the other day. I'm not exactly sure where it came from except that I have always been in a battle of loneliness and sad situations tend to swell inside that brain of mine. Anyway I uploaded it last night and guess what?! When I logged on this morning it was on the front page under "most popular deviations submitted in the last eight hours." How cool! This has never happened to me before and it made the reason for writing the poem seem to shrink as my heart grew. It was even enough to alter my statistics completely making it the most favorited one in my gallery in the first 24 hours it was up! So thank you everyone out there. I am at home, sick right now with the first cold of the season but every one of you just made my day


Good books I have read recently:

~The Lovely Bones by: Alice Sebold

~The Kite Runner by: Khalad Hosseini

~The Host by: Stephenie Meyer

Best book ever: Water For Elephants by: Sara Gruen

??Any book suggestions??

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My hell week is over today! I have been working, going to school, interning at the magazine, doing homework, and trying to find time to sleep in a week of 14 hour days. I get tomorrow and the next day off which I'm going to use to go to Portland and hang out with my sister as well as watch my parents walk/run the Portland Marathon. Jason won't get to come with me which sucks but it will be nice to wind down after this crappy week.

Today I got to meet a wonderful lady who is a journalist(which I'm majoring in) who is going to talk to me about her travels as well as give advice on what my future may hold for me.

Unfortunately this term I don't get to take any photography or writing classes since I have filled most of those requirements for pre-journalism. I'm taking history and speech I am still going to try to read and write but I won't have very much time to. I am writing a poem called The Lonely Spider and once it's finished and I have a good supplemental photo I shall post. Comments and support are always appreciated! Hope everyone is doing well

Good books I have read recently:

~The Lovely Bones by: Alice Sebold

~The Kite Runner by: Khalad Hosseini

~The Host by: Stephenie Meyer

Best book ever: Water For Elephants by: Sara Gruen

??Any book suggestions??

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What is loneliness? Why do people get lonely? I think it's imprtant for every healthy person to be attached to other people socially and personally even though people are NOT perfect and will eventually let you down in some way or another. It's inevitable.

My ultimate let down was when my brother left. The sad part for me was he hadn't told my Mom that he was going to leave town. She was and still is the only person he was in contact with and she was crushed. I never expected that he would stay away for what I fear is for good. I don't know what is worse...saying goodbye to someone and KNOWING that they won't be back for some time(or for good) or holding onto hope that they might come back and finding, after years, that hoping is pointless. It still hurts, and will always hurt and because of that relationship being broken I haven't connected to anyone like that since, with the exception of Jason, my boyfriend Any close friend I have had in this 8 year period has been lost in one way or another. Whether we have simply grown apart or I felt they have betrayed me somehow I don't have much of a problem writing people out of my life...forever. It sounds harsh but people come and go and everyone is there for a reason. It's easier to shut people out and lean on my family than expose how truly vulnerable and sensitive I am. My family and I are very close now. My parents and sister are so very important to me and with Jason in my life I feel very fulfilled as far as my family goes. They are my world

That said, I have lived in Eugene for close to two years and truly love this unique city. Jason and I live in a nice apartment in downtown, I finally have a job I enjoy, and for the first time in my entire life I am doing really well in school. I really shouldn't have anything to complain about. But you'd think after two years I would've found some lasting friendships and in some ways I have. I have people here that I know I could count on no matter what but on a daily friendship basis I haven't found many that make an effort or make time to see and be around me. I make an effort with some and not so much with others but you'd think I would've found a connection with SOMEONE by now. It makes me wonder...if I am just one of those people who is meant to be their own friend...

I write, I take photos, I play piano, and mainly, I sit at home and clean. I tend to be shy and don't put myself out there unless I really know a person. I don't mind my own company but it gets, well, lonely. When my emotional needs aren't met I feel conflicted, and lash out at the people that are around me when it's not their fault to begin with. Maybe close friends are simply overrated and my inability to overlook betrayal will always stand in the way of finding that best-friend-no-matter-what. Maybe I need to learn how to better be my own friend rather than focusing on what I don't have. Maybe I need to stop trying...?

Good books I have read recently:

~The Lovely Bones by: Alice Sebold

~The Kite Runner by: Khalad Hosseini

~The Host by: Stephenie Meyer

Best book ever: Water For Elephants by: Sara Gruen

??Any book suggestions??

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